Beautiful?
What is beauty?
It’s not that pound of makeup you caked on your face to make u think your beautiful, its not the slutty outfits you squeeze yourself in, its definitely not starving yourself to be as thin as the models on TV; Beauty could and is a million things, like a small imperfection such as a beauty mark on your cheek. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, and its within, its not how you look necessarily, it is how you act and look at yourself and others.
lillidoll asked: Then, I have no clue. It's been awhile since I went after a girl, so just be yourself, & I'm sure they'll come in thousands. :)
lol i wish, still cant find one. i am lame thats why. haha
(via racekat19)
Even if i did.. i wouldnt tell… you…
If i told u i missed you would u tell me whats next?
Even if They miss you the wont tell you; they have to be strong, stronger than ever. In their mind they cant show they miss you, or it means they care; and they cant care or it hurts. They wont tell you, ever, if they miss you; and you made it so.
The real question is were you ever theres, to even be missing?
You were never theres in the first place; so its not there place to miss you. you would let yourself be theres; so now the status has changed, now your friends and she will never say she misses you even if she remotly does. But truthfully she just doesnt want to even care, and with each passing day she cares even less than the day before the last. You did this to them, you hurt them once to many times for them to believe anything you say, for them to even want to admit they miss you a little and now there so much more stronger. With this they will rise up and stand taller than ever, before you, and everyone; so the world can see how they became that much stronger.
lillidoll asked: I saw your problem with finding a female, so my only helpful insight is shop outside your high school or look for one older than you. But you probably thought of it, but oh well.
Yeah, I’m tryin lol. I just don’t know how o get a gay girl. It’s hard
Karma?
Got hurt, but maybe it was karma. Maybe be cause i didnt give thema chance like they should have gotten, and chose you; I didnt get the chance i deserved from you. I know now i shold have chose him instead, cause the past just hurts me. And now here i am back where i started; From now on i look at new people instead, and maybe ill find a beautiful girl that i can treat like a princess; i could treat her how she deserves, Or maybe ill find a man who will give me a chance and treat me right and how i deserve to be treated.
The past lied to me and tolled me they wernt lying, the past hurt me, adn now the past is already calling you his girl, i wonder how long that will last. Maybe im just a little bitter because your gettign more of a chance than i evr got, and will evr get. Im stuck in the friend zone, but fuck it im moving on; ill find that person who can tell im worth it, worth giving a chance. Cause im not going to be your option, im not going to be anyones option.
I know what im worth and its a whole lot more than you think, cause your not gunna find a girl like me. I an say that with confidence because im not like all the other girls.
Im done, im gone.
(via blakehunter17)
Maze of my heart
Can you see how much I’m hurting, probaly not. I can’t find my way out of this fog, and I can’t relie on you guiding me through it, but I don’t know what way to turn. I hear the voices telling me to go one way but I’m not sure cause I can feel that your in a different part of this maze, I want you but you don’t seem willing, I wish I knew if your words were truth. The question is what do I do?
Looking glass..
I should try to look at this situation from an objective point of view, but since I’m personally in involved it’s hard to.
Someone elsses perspective: that I’m being dodged, that I’m setting myself up for disappointment.
Well I kinda see it, In a way, but then again they don’t trust like I do. So yes it’s possible that could be true of the situation; but on the other hand I see this goodness, I trust, and the main factor I don’t want them to be right, so am I just not seeing it?
If I’m deluding myself, I’m at blame for half. The other half isn’t my fault.
I don’t want to be lied to ever again, from someone I care about. I want the truth even if it hurts a lil or a lot, cuz in the long run I’ll be happier gettin the truth than knowing I was lead on or lied to.
At this point I’m believeing that I’m not being dodged, lead on ect…
If I could have an objective opinion I wonder what I would actualy see.
Through my eyes, I can see the good, yes a lil bad maybe.
But when it comes to this all I seem to know is my love, the caring, the hurt I once felt and hope to not feel again, and just all the emotions that make me aspire to have what I want.
One day, hopefully the near future , I’ll have what I want; I’ll have it everyday maybe, I’ll have it to myself, I’ll be able to say it’s mine; and I know some times I get ahead of myself In thinking about having it and I go to far to the future; it would be nice to have it then like that, but that’s somethin I’ve done in the past that normally gets me hurt.
What ends up making the hurt it the atachment you get.
I’ll probaly never be able to see this objectivly, but I can’t fully say I’d want to, cause I know Id be happy with it.
Bleeding music.
How is it that I still miss you, when your back in my life? Maybe it’s cause I can’t have you, I can’t see you when I want to, I can’t talk to you like I want to. All day constantly youre on my mind. When will it be time to be with you, instead of missing you constantly? Waiting is what we have, all we have. Cause are lifes are razorblades and butter cups.
Wizardry 101
Finished the 2nd day of school, hasn’t been horrible and I’m kinda happy to be back now. It feels good to be around people, it helps take my mind off of the situation of not being able to have what I hoped for… It almost feels like I’m not wanted now, almost like my mom was right. I hope she wasn’t right…. I started trusting people more, and when you trust someone again, a lot, it’s hard when you get the feelings of being unsure if your wanted or not.
Maybe when I get my car fixed and lisecense, the situation can be how I had hoped for… Unless something changes and I get completely replaced…. I don’t know, but I can’t help but complain/ vent. When something and someone you love is on your mind all the time it’s hard not to. It feels like a knife sometimes when I start to think… :( I wish I had someone who knew how I felt….
